As I wrote a few blogs before I have been diagnosed with Infectious Mononucleosis or ‘mono’. I’ve been sick for almost two months now and at first I thought mono was just a little virus that would go away without doing anything. I went to the doctor, did a bloodtest and got some medicines that I took as long as the doctor told me to. So I just kept going. I went to work, traveled with groups, took a trip to a waterpark and stayed up late. I did not give myself any time to rest because I didn’t feel like I was sick and I didn’t want to miss out on anything. Being sick in Guatemala is just a waste of time. But I did get sicker and sicker.
Now the Dutch group from World Servants is here and that’s another dream that came true: experiencing a World Servants project but then from the other side. The group is fun and I love to spend time with them and do awesome things together, but my body does not longer allow me to do that. Last week I went back to the doctor because the rash kept getting worse and more painful. I had swollen lymphnodes the size of M&M’s, fever attacks, a painful throat and I was actually really, really tired. The doctor told me I really had to rest for at least two weeks. And not just rest, no, two weeks of bedrest with a lot of water and sleep. If I didn’t follow his advice, the rash could leave permanent scars on my neck and head. I still didn’t feel very sick, so I kept going until I played football last Monday night and I almost collapsed because I could hardly breathe anymore. I kept pretending I was fine, even though I knew in my head that something was really wrong.
And because I did not listen to my body, I have to face the consequences now. Today is Sam and Jen’s last day in Guatemala before they leave for Sam’s wedding and I am not allowed to leave the house, so I can’t spend some last time with them. The team is in Campamento Canaán right now, one of my favorite places in the country, and I really didn’t want to miss out on that. After that they are doing home visits and they visit another school and I really, really want to be with them but I can’t. This week they are going salsa dancing, they will climb the volcano Pacaya and they have a sports day with my girls from Team Verbena, but I am not allowed to be there. I haven’t slept in two days because the itch and burn kept me awake, I woke up with a fever, a rash that feels like a heavy sunburn, swollen lymphnodes and an enlarged spleen and liver. If I don’t rest now, my body will keep fighting against the virus which will keep me sick for another few months.
So, as you can read, life in Guate is not always fun. The fear of missing out is killing me and it is not fun to stay in an empty house for four days. Yesterday I talked to Gary, my supervisor, and he thinks I spend too much time with the team and that I should focus more on the videos since time is flying by. But on the other hand Sam and Phil expect me to help out with the team, doing translation work and general help with leading the team. Even more now Sam and Phil are both leaving the country. And then there’s a third party that wants me to stay in the house for weeks, getting sleep to fight the mono. I am kind of stuck between all of them right now and I don’t really know what to do. I have to rest, but I know it is actually not possible. And I want to go out and do everything, but then I can infect people even longer. So yeah, that’s how things are going right now. It is all a little too much and I don’t want to let anyone down. Sorry for this not-so-happy blogpost, but I think that by now you’ve also noticed that this is kind of my personal diary and I want to keep track of everything that is happening to me, so I had to include this too!
Please pray for my health in the coming weeks so I can go out again soon and help out wherever I am needed!